Penantian Satu Penyiksaan

Hai, Assalamualaikum..

Cuti-cuti Malaysia. Sedang seronok berjimba di rumah. Tapi, ade satu benda aku tak pernah lupa. My internship placement!!! Oh Allah, help me, ease my way. Aku sekarang ni dah buntu gila. Almost gila. Two weeks before the programme started, and i'm still nowhere to go. Dah jenuh dah hantar surat disitu disini begitu begini and at last, nothing!

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Don't know whats going wrong, aku ni tak memenuhi kriteria by employers or what.. Rasanya result aku so-so je. Not bad lah sangat kata orang. Resume pun dah buat catik-cantik.. Tapi... Tipula kalau cakap takde satu company pun yang reply, ade. And mostly yang reply are chinese company. Their answers were something like "your letter are in the midst of processing" or "if you're shortlisted, you should be hearing from me within a week time". And, tak kurang jugak, reply yang macam ni: "Harap maaf, permohonan anda ditolak." Tapi-tapi-tapi,  that is much better sebab terus terang bagi status, tidaklah bagi harapan.. tunggu berbulan tak balas-balas, or bila call selalu buzy. At least reply la, like "sorry, u failed" ataupun "student intern tidak diterima". Then, aku redha dan takdelah tertunggu-tunggu, and i can proceed to other applications. And if really diorang pilih betul-betul based on requirements and capability, i'll admit it.

Kalalu nak ikutkan requirement, budak intern, apela sangat nak require kan. Sorry to say la to those yang dapat through cable and what not..You may got the position, but not my respect. If u are really capable, why not do it in a rightful way. Tapi yang gone through interviews, and betul-betul berusaha, memang aku tabik spring. Takde maknalah nak jealous ke ape ke. You deserve it! 

To friends, all the best and have fun. And please, jangan tanya soalan macam ni:
Ko dah dapat tempat belum? or, 
Intern ko ape cerr? or, 
Salam, nanti awak intern kat mana?

Well, i appreciate the "caring"ness. Tapi, i feel burdened ok. And usually aku akan jawab: InsyaAllah, satu hari nanti aku dapatlah.. 

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Llike always, being positive. Mungkin takde rezeki lagi kot. One day, insyaAllah.. i'll keep fighting and err, waiting.
And please no more questions :)